hey... so i  realized sumthing today.  everytime i get close to someone i push them away... i try to find something bad about them to use so we aren't frinds anymore... i d k why i do this.. i mean i love my friends sooo much.  i think i am afraid that they are going to ditch me... or not want to be my friend.  i think i open myself up adn trust to easily and to quickly... i leave myself open for a let down... and the let down always comes.  well yea thats jsut wht i was thinkin...

okay... well i k i sort of suck at this whole poetry thing.. but i really love it.. so i would liek u guys to give me constructive criticism on wht i need to work on

She tears open her skin with one quick swipe

She see the crimson blood and everything’s alright

She walks by people at school and the see her scars

Thinking o just another girl who feels sorry for herself

They don’t know though..

They don’t know that she sleeps with guys to feel loved because she was raped when she was 10

They don’t know that she only acts so mean because she is afraid to let some1 in to betray her yet again.

They don’t know that she smokes and drinks because it helps her forget her faults

The don’t know that she cries herself to sleep because she was beaten in her fathers drunken rage

The don’t know that she cuts because it helps erase some of the people and times she wants to forget.

She is everything she hates

She slowly pulls the trigger wondering if this will be the sign that will let everyone know

IF I HAD WINGS

If I had wings to fly I would soar away

I would leave all the emotional abuse and hate

I would get away from all my friends making bad decisions that ruin their lives.

I’d soar away from all of my mortal pain into a better place….

Maybe even all the way to heaven

If I had wings to fly I would wish that I had feet to walk

so i could run away from all my grief that followed me while I was flying